there's this sadness engulfing me.
i dunno wad it is.

guess everything's just crashing in.

and no, im not brooding over my L1R5.
ok, maybe a little.

but there's just smth else bothering me even more.
and i dunno wad it is.
hai.

it's been a long time since i last felt this way.
seriously hate this feeling.


yea. hope all my friends will be happy.


ok.
enough of this.

i tink i cant sleep early.
coz i've been sleeping early for the past few nights
and guess wad
i was still horribly tired the next morning.
to the extent that i find it better to sleep late!
stupid!
im less tired if i sleep late.
wth is this lor.

there's smth i want to type.

oh yea.
hoho's my idol.
love him to bits.
he finally returned to sch td
haha
and with a new hairstyle
LOL.


OH YES.
i dun like jun yang anymore.
act diao.
all the superstars have got lousy attitudes.
except sebastian.
that day when i went town with see inn and jas,
we saw the whole bunch of superstars inside a salon.
whole lot of ppl surrounded the see through glass
but they din give a damn to anyone outside who were watching them.
even if they happen to look out of the salon,
they just looked right through the people.
it was only then did i realise that i was just as transparent as the glass.
damn.
and sin huey.
whoa.
damn dao la huh
she sat on a bench in the salon that was nearest to the glass,
back facing the crowd.
she just busied herself talking to another girl.
even when she got up to take smth frm her bag
she din even lift her head to like, address the crowd or smth.
and silver.
omg.
typing her name is equivalent to wasting my energy.
she stood by the door the whole time
and flirted her time away with some.. weird... guy.
omg. could still remember vividly the way she talked
and she stood DAMN close to that guy.
if i were that guy, i tink i wld be secretly cursing her in my head.
but wait, guys usually dun tink that way right?
they enjoy things like this right?
but silver's not exactly the prettiest girl on the surface of this earth anyways. (ahem)
and so.
all the superstars are like that.
only sebastian bothered to look up and wave at us.
damn disappointed with jun yang's attitude la.
i've always tot he's friendly and nice.
how wrong.
he even played hand games with ruth.
wth.
under the eyes of so many ppl.
they are so faking it lor.
who on earth wld play such games in a salon, with so many ppl watching?!
isn it so hypocritic?!
they're trying to let us tink that they're cute or smth.
for goodness sake,
im not going to fall for that.
surprise surprise.
damn surprised by their attitude.
they're not exactly superstars anyway.
wad gives them the right to act in such a way.
even real celebrities wld wave and smile.
or at least look up.
whoa.
they really tink they're huge superstars already.
well if they're gonna think like this,
then i feel that they can bid their celebrity status goodbye very, very soon.

they are no superstars to me.

so in case anyone of u out there still treats them like they're ur idols or smth,
think again.

fame does really change people.
it's especially unbelievable that such a minute amt of fame managed to change them.

i used to like junyang a lot.
not anymore.

i roll my eyes everytime i see their adv on tv now.

it's better to stick to real superstars like jay. or chuanyi. or edison.
many real celebrities out there are definitely better than them
guess that's why they're real superstars