OK THAT'S IT.
EVERYTHING WILL HAVE TO STOP.
i dont think i can take it any longer.
im very upset with myself now because there are just TOO MANY things to do
and i dont know where to start.
so i just sit in front of the computer and pretend to run away from all the work i have to do.
i need more MORE MORE time.
have a little faith. WHAT RUBBISH.
there's always a limit to everything.
right now i just want to study hard.
i just want to study.
and nothing else.
yes, nothing else.

for the whole weekend i just studied CARBONYL
and freak im going to dream about it every night.
this is so tiring.


and you cant imagine how close i am to giving up.