okay so i havent been using the computer!
LIFE IS SO BORING.
even if i have the spending power, i dont have the time.

anyway i have to share what my kid told me just now over tuition.
me: do you know what does grinning from ear to ear means?
kid: ...
me: do you think it's a good or bad thing?
kid: bad? like he's angry?
me: no, it's actually a good thing, he's happy. it means that he has a huge smile on his face. (and i draw a smiley)
kid: but how can that be? a smile can never spread to the ears!
me: i know it's impossible, but it's just for describing he's really very happy.

and then we went on for about 10mins arguing with each other.

kid: what is wash kidney?
me: ...
kid: my friend say they take out the kidney and wipe it with tissue.
me: !!! it's called kidney dialysis. you cannot translate it directly from chinese. it doesnt mean literally WASHING the kidney. the machine purifies the blood.

and then we spend another 10 mins arguing over that.

kid: there's a heart in my wrist cos i can feel it.
me: it's a pulse. you only have 1 heart and it's in your chest.
kid: but why like that ah?
me: cos your whole body is connected?
kid: neck also have.
me: uh uh.
kid: then how come legs dont have, i cannot feel it.
me: ... maybe because it's furthest away from your heart (??!!! i dont even know!)

seriously it's so funny! and today she was just being really weird!

and then i was explaining HEAD - ON COLLISION to her and she went on to tell me something like: "oh so is it this person (starts drawing stick man) and this person (draws another stick man) they want to pick up eraser so they bend down at the same time and hit each other?"

she really amuses me!

you know what bothers me?
that i dont know what's bothering me!
okay how can anyone be so retarded?!
like i dont know what i want anymore.
and i cant make any firm decisions anymore.
and i just dont know what am i doing.
why am i doing this and that for.
why am i not doing this and that
why am i feeling this and that way
why am i wasting my time
why why why why why
i think work is really making me crazy
i hate the air con.
i hate the smell of the office.
i hate the pantry
i hate to wake up so early every morning



YOU KNOW WHAT, IT'S TRUE!
everytime i blog i just have to COMPLAIN AND COMPLAIN AND COMPLAIN.
OMG I THINK IM REALLY VERY ANNOYING!

okay well then, i have to wake up very early tomorrow again.
cos i have to meet my agent to pass him my timesheet
and then i have to go down to SSDC to take my trial test.
you know everytime i go there i make a fool out of myself?
like the last time i went there to book for a trial test i realised how cock - eyed i actually am?
me: the kiosk only showed the option for the booking of the actual BTT, there's no trial test
receptionist: cannot be, there should be an option for trial test
me: okay let's say there really is but they only offered dates in may
receptionist: that's impossible, cos we have trial tests EVERYDAY.
and then i cringed.
so i told her maybe i really overlooked the option for TRIAL TEST and i went back to the kiosk to try.
but i really didnt see any freaking option fror trial test!
and i went back to her again. this time she asked another person to accompany me to the kiosk to help me with it.
it was seriously damn embarrassing okay. like i cant even work with a bloody machine.
in the end the guy who went to help me just clicked on the furthest right option which said TRIAL TEST and i was like WHOA WAIT WHAT DID YOU JUST DO????
and he just went IF YOU WANT TO BOOK FOR TRIAL TEST OF COURSE YOU CHOOSE TRIAL TEST RIGHT (WTF)?
im really cock - eyed lah. all along i thought the furthest option would be for the booking of practical sessions or smth so i JUST REFUSE to give it a closer look.
omg i wanted to just dig a hole and jump into in there and then.
so what im trying to say is that i hope i wont make a fool out of myself tomorrow!