the past few days have been the worst days of my life
i still feel very upset and depressed and worried
but life still has to go on and i will eventually have to come to terms with my lousy grades.
work has been rubbish since i spend every waking moment thinking about what i should do with my life.

but i know my parents still love me.
ive always wanted to make them proud so that they wont have to worry about me.
but look what happened to me.
i am such a disappointment.
i cant even answer to myself.

the only thing i can tell myself is that i have tried my best
of course, things would have been different if i did consistent work
OR IF I SET MY PRIORITES RIGHT.
OR IF I WAS A BIT MORE DECISIVE.
it's too late for all these.

but like ive said, i know i didnt waste 2 years of my life.
ive picked up so much
and all of it made me who i am today.

the other day my dad told me he'd give his fullest support in whatever decisions i next make for my own education
and that is what is most important to me now.
cos my parents matters the most to me.

and to all those who cared, thank you, really makes me feel better...