[jay]walker*

i am such an idiot.


how can i be so careless?!

i really hate myself...

why was i sooo careless??!!

it's all gone already!!
all gone!!
and it's becoz i was careless!
i've kept and looked at them for nearly a year already
and now they're all gone!
just becoz i was careless
careless
so careless
so fucking careless

aight.
maybe it was a burden to me
now that it's gone,
i might be able to move on more easily.

but it's tearing up my heart to see it not there.
so gone.

i cant put into words how i really felt at that moment.
it's just,
so hurtful.
i've never felt so much hurt in a long long while already

it was only when i lost it that i realised that i still treated it so importantly

i still cant believe i was so so so careless!!

nth.to.cling.onto.anymore