[jay]walker*

wad's the point really,
to keep worrying and worrying and worrying abt the nearing prelims
when i dun do anth abt it?

aight. let's put it correctly.
i did do smth abt it.
but, i dun tink it's enough to pull me through prelims to get into a jc in the first 3 mths.
no, it's seriously not enough.
as everyday passes me by like it's on wings,
in my head, i see the picture of myself in a jc uniform getting blurrer and blurrer.
and i noe that eventually,
that pic, that image, will disappear altogether.
i do sound very dramatic, dun i.
but isnt the o levels all abt drama?
sec 4 students study very very very hard just to get through the prelims and the os.
i wonder how my seniors pulled through man.

i dun tink that im not motivated.
i dun tink that im not sensible.
i just dunno wad's so wrong.
im just, going too slowly!
i cant do much!
why?!

perhaps up to this stage,
i shld finally realise that im not jc material.
and that even if i really manage to scrape through to get into a jc
i wun neccessary be able to cope there.

everyone (i mean, practically) aims to get into a jc.
i shld realise i shldn go with the majority,
becoz they have got wad it takes to be a jc student
and i dun.

no matter how hard i try
it just seems so that i cant do well.
or maybe i haven tried my best.
but it's like the furthest i can go.
ah, i dunno.

dun even dare tear if u get into a poly aight, nn.
argh.

it's 3 weeks to the prelims.
and i seriously think that the time is not enough to get everything right.

next week's prelim practicals.
i shld thank god that it's not yet the o levels pract.
but oh well,
that day will come right.
ah
wadever



anyways.
ashton kutcher is so cute.

and im listening to jay's 8 dimension.
ok, im slow.
i borrowed it frm see inn
nice!
omg.
there's this dialect track that i love so much
so nice
omg.

jas asked me for my ic number
and the first thing i asked her back was
"why do u want my ic number."
hawhawhaw
hey. so wad she's my les partner right?
ic number is so personal.
hahaahhaa!
but i still told her.
lolx!

caught charlie chocolate factory ytd!
damn nice!
u ppl shld really catch it!
it's so nice!
willy wonka was so cutee!
hahahah~
and charlie will definitely grow up to be a very shuai guy.
argh
hystericality.
penny invented this word last yr.
lol
willy wonka, or shld i say, johnny depp,
has got WHITE, WHITE teeth.
he has got the whitest teeth i've ever seen in my entire life up till now.
omg.
so white
and NEAT!
at certain points i wondered whether could those teeth be dentures.
ah!
i sudd remembered smth
u see, huizi got her braces removed
and i was like going, "ooh, u got ur dentures removed."
i found it weird then but i din realise wad was weird.
and the thing is, huizi din correct me.
nobody did.
LOL!
omg..

i did a blardy courageous thing on one of the days this week.
really unbelievable.
i din believe i cld actually do it.
but oh well, i've done it.
and shld i say, i feel better than ever?