you know how some people can be very hypocritical?
like they really dislike you but still bother to be kind/polite/nice.
i wonder how these people live their lives.
it'd be such a chore and it's so tiring to live like that.
i dont think i have friends like that (but who knows, right. wow that's a scary thought)
why dont people just live for themselves and do what they want and what they feel like?
if you hate a particular someone you DONT have to be friends.
you DONT have to force yourself to be kind/polite/nice.
you DONT have to bother to entertain that person.
now wouldnt that be easier and even more so, happier, for you?

and then i was thinking the other day, what if my friends dislike me?
but being the superb hypocrite that he/she is, he/she still bothers to be my friend/be nice.
apart from feeling disgusted over these hypocritical beings, imagine the embarrassment that comes along with it.
the whole time you thought he/she was your friend and all that
but in actual fact he/she goes talking bad about you behind your back
or like the whole time both of your were hanging out that person just cursed and cursed and cursed you secretly.
i wonder if there's really such people, who goes to such an intolerable extent to make friends.
it's like torturing yourself, to make yourself be nice/polite/befriend people you really dislike.
i, for one, wouldnt make myself lead such a sad life.
if i dislike you, i wouldnt be shy to let you know about it.
and i absolutely wont bother to entertain you.

the world is a complicated place!
it's scary to step out into the society.
ive always thought office politics is a damn stupid thing
but since everyone talks about it, it has to be true to a certain extent, that it happens everywhere.
sometimes you just have to be hypocritical to... survive (wow) *ROLLS EYES.
im glad i dont have to deal with it at the moment.

to be truthful i feel a little angsty tonight.

and it's partly because YOUTUBE IS NOT BLOODY WORKING!