university application is crazy for me.
like there's so much to do, to consider, to decide.
and lousy grades just make everything worse.

i still believe that everything happens for a reason so i just hope i'll come to terms to all that has happened soon. i still realise how screwed up i am once in a while but most of the time i just think about what i should do now to clear the mess up.
i think everything was very fair and square. in a way you could say i totally deserved the lousy grades. after season ended, with approximately 3 more months to exams, i knew it already, that all the cramping will not get me anywhere. not that i gave up there and then, cos i secretly hoped that there's a genius hidden within me which will help me score AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA for everything with only 3 months of studying. WHICH OTHERWISE, MEANS, I DIDNT GIVE UP HOPE LAH, and i didnt stop believing (in myself).
but i guess sometimes, there's just so much you can do.
and ive tried my best.
i am moving on!

and now i have something to share from tuition (again, yes!).
we are now at unit 6. i think it's a chapter on fairytales, knights, adventures.
and we were doing vocabulary the other day, which i spent almost an hour and a half explaining 10 questions only.
after that i took the book and looked at all the questions again and guess what i saw!
at the blank space beside the question on knight and armour, i saw this boy's name!
my secret inner GOSSIP GIRL came alive immediately (i swear, it's for the 1st time HAHAHA)!
for that question i remember her asking me what is a knight
and this was exactly what i told her:
you ever heard of knight in shining armour? in fairytales they wear this metal stuff and go rescue the princesses?
HAHHAA it's so cute right! so that boy is her knight in shining armour!
so basically i kept asking her about that boy lah, hoping to dig out something.
turned out that he's one year her senior in school and lives at the same condo as her.
how interesting!
then i was like: but he's your senior leh.. not even in your class
her: he very handsome what.

hahhhaa, OKAYYYY SURE!!!
seriously, only P4!
when I was in P4 i spent all my recesses feeling amused by all the BG rumours between my girl friends and the boys in my class, not ogling at good looking seniors!
(but of course when you get older, it'll be okay lah HAHAHAHHAAAHAHAHAHAHHA KIDDING.)