caught me when i was at my most vulnerable.
wtf.
all of u know nth abt anth,
so keep ur crap to urself and stop saying unfair stuffs.
termed me a slacker and anti co.
i wld've let go if it's true but it aint.
ahh, forget it.
im always in the wrong.
im always screwing up things.
wadever i say wun help.

haix.
bombarded by stupid stuffs.
i was just abt to go to sleep last night, when i saw the msg.
demmit.
totally pulled me down noe.
so i went to bed and cried to sleep.
i cldn take it anymore.
everything's coming harsh on me.
it's like, the world turned its back on me or smth.
not trying to sound dramatic here, but it's exactly how i felt last night.
there's this memory i cnt let go.
and there's also the co problems.
haix.
that msg frm huizi certainly pissed me off a great deal.
im a co slacker.
fine. say wadever they want.
i see it as pin pointing ok.
all of them are prejudiced against me.
haix, wth.
my mother saw me sit up in bed and asked wad happened.
so dead, so dead. me, not.
whoo. [dun understand this part? hahh. then dun bother to try figuring it out]

i went to sch, of course, for the practice.
wth. shant elaborate.

went cwp after that with penny.
actually planned to catch 'howling castle'.
watching it tmr.
pls dun slot in 'last minute - decided' co practices k, coz if u do, i'd freak out, and scream.
we walked ard cwp.
it was nice to spend time with penny.
nice to talk to her, and it certainly made me feel better. yayys.
she's a purple freak
and im an orange freak.
we are so damn cool.
weeeet! hahhh

i hate to see my eyes redden when i look into the mirror.
the tears just come whenever i get myself reminded.
really, it's been sucha long time...
but why am i still like this?
why do i still allow that single person get me down?
i want to see that familiar physique again, and im trying so hard.
everytime i tink of it, everytime i try to picture u in my head,
i get myself down.
there are so many things i want to say...
but... but.... i dunno how to put all of them in words.